Anxiety

That's it. I do not like how I get anxiety when people leave. Kari and her family left today and all day I have just felt like crap. I love Tyana so much but she is occupied with other things and is basically never home. I don't know many people. Hopefully, this will change soon when I get a job. Which that isn't going so well. Even when I went home for Christmas and had to come back I got anxiety. My chest feels like something really heavy is on it and its hard to breath. I have realized I need to be around a lot of people. Even if I don't talk to them or don't know them, at least there is tons more things going on that I can focus on. When sitting at home, nothing goes on and I get thinking and worrying about things and then soon get sad and depressed. It's worse at night because it's just me in my room and I think, think, think about coulda, woulda, shouldas and what might happen if this happened or that happened. At least during the day I can go somewhere and "people watch" or do something else. It will go away in a few days but while it lasts, it sucks.

I just needed to vent a little and here was the place I landed.